Us

I realized that I hadn't posted what was new in our lives as a couple in a while. Truthfully, I keep waiting for something to happen only to find myself still waiting for the next big event. I figured, though, that despite a lack of knowledge about where it's all going, I could still tell you where we are now.A very big thing in our lives has been a generous gift we just received from Jesse's grandpa. He set up a loan for Jesse and his brother Michael when their mom died years ago. This amount reached a high amount, but with the fluctuation of the economy, it was beginning to decrease. Being up in years, he also no longer wanted bank accounts and savings hanging over his head and was ready to liquidate his funds. In addition, seeing a possible need that Michael and Kaela may have for the money right now, it all seemed to determine now as the right time for releasing the money. Jesse and I first decided to tithe a tenth of the total amount to honor God with what He has given us. Then we would pay off our existing bills, specifically Jesse's hospital bill from his stitches months ago and his student loans. Then, we wanted to buy me a new car- one that is more family-friendly for having kids in the future. It's really hard as it is to get an infant out of a carseat in my two-door Ford Probe. You have to completely climb in and remove the baby from the seat maneuvering them between the carseat and the car ceiling. Not ideal at all. Furthermore, Jesse has had his heart really set on buying a truck for himself, so we decided to lessen the price of my car and get Jesse his own car as well, and sell the Probe to make up for the additional cost. From there, we want to put the remaining amount into a savings account as a down payment on a house. With our previous debt paid off, we will have an additional $900 a month to put towards any additional expenses and to add to our savings account. We are very aware of what an extreme blessing it is to be totally debt-free and have a hefty nest-egg for a house after being married only 8 months. There is a hold on the money in the bank until Friday while they verify that the money is from a valid source. Therefore, Jesse and I have yet to spend a cent of it. However, we have been looking extensively at cars for the past two weeks and each have our eyes set on the one we want. It's now just a matter of time until we are free to make the purchases.Aside from the recent financial blessings and decisions, Jesse and I have been continuing our quest for a baby. Both of us want one with our whole hearts, and the previous 5 months have been quite an emotional roller-coaster as we have been met with a series of disappointments. We both have a history of infertility in our families and that causes us to feel even more stress as each week turns into a month and each month turns into another month. Right now, we are in the midst of another waiting game as we anticipate fertility and a positive or negative result. We have decided that by mid-March if everything is still coming up negative, we will seek the counsel of a doctor. While I don't believe they will be too concerned about infertility considering that we've been trying for less than a year, perhaps they can give us any advice about ways to increase our chances of conceiving. And if we can provide them with a knowledge of our family history, our doctor can determine how concerned he is about us inheriting these problems. As we deal with every disappointment and insecurity, we are learning to take our fears and broken hearts to God. For me, it doesn't give me a sudden feeling of relief upon releasing it into God's hands. Rather, it is a matter of taking it before God over and over again with every crisis I face, pleading for strength to get through it and for faith to trust in His timing. Jesse and I pray together lifting up our desires to God and Jesse does a good job of consoling me as I experience all of the emotions. As we continue to go through this, I will keep updating everyone. And you can be certain that as soon as I learn that I am pregnant, I won't be able to contain the secret.Aside from these things, I am working on one of my best friend's baby shower as she anticipates the arrival of her firstborn in April. Jesse has also begun playing football for the Eugene Outlaws, the local semi-pro team. While Jesse is discovering it's not the same as high school or college ball,I think that he enjoys being on a competitive team again and getting back into shape. He's recently joined a gym and signed up with a personal trainer who works him hard. He currently doesn't plan on playing again next year, but I'm glad he pursued it this year. Otherwise, I fear that he always would've wondered what could've been.On a day-to-day basis, it doesn't seem that our lives are too eventful. But as we make every decision and face every event, high or low, I am thrilled to be experiencing it with the love of my life. After all, it's every thing, mundane and exciting together, that make today just another day in paradise...